For everyone new year had already started on January 2017. For me, new year has been started now, because I entered the third year of graduation.
Half gone, Half left..
This two years was worst and best both for me. I learned too much and with mental strength, my physical strength also has increased by doing too much work for hours. I met many people’s here and learned from them. Some had alleged me,some defamed. So it’s a mixture of alleged, defamed, concede and also love and care for me.
A medical environment was very new for me and my problem is that I take time to learn. Sometime I had became frustrated here. I always try to mend this rift either made by me or by someone else.
I remember when I lost myself in nostalgia of my home. But my mom just say to me ” Try to adjust”. I was suffering here from lots of offence. Nursing is very tough profession. Even after two years I am not happy. Sometimes I masquerade myself to hide my sorrow. Here no one to give you incentive to do something.
One thing is best is camaraderie around me. I find good friends who has always here for me.
Let’s see.. what’s next will be another two years.
This feeling of emptiness is very worst
Mind is blank
Respiration is shallow
Heartbeat is high
Soul is broken
Body feels heavy
Eyes is shutting down
Bones is relax
Musles is separating
Stomach feels heaviness
Ears is close
Body want to shut down for forever
It’s hard to wake up
It’s hard to sleep
It’s hard to fun
It’s hard to laugh
It’s hard to cry
It’s hard to hate
It’s hard to love..
It’s become too hard to fill this –
Body try to compensate this emptiness by following brightness beside darkness..
A sound of broken pieces again came out from inside
Again, a piece has broken within me
After a lot of reluctant, I had rejoin myself to stand in front of them
Again, the same thing with same echo sound came in my ear from different individual
Now, I am helpless
How can I rejoin this broken pieces again..?
My mind is in great turmoil
I don’t believe you left me in pieces..
Now, even my tachycardia not able to rejoin me heart broken pieces.
I want to lost myself in deep sleep so you can came in my dream to rejoin my broken pieces.
Temptation is a very notorious thing. Where we want that we don’t have to do ” this” or “that” type of thing which will not good for us. But we can’t stop ourselves. We again and again repeat this things or mistakes.
This is common in various cases which we want but don’t do:
- Losing weight
- Feeding good diet
- Writing everyday
- Don’t talk to someone who ignores you
- Study long hours..etc
Now, you are suffering from any of this problem. We only procrastinate or defy. Everytime we take resolution and always try to mend things. We have been notice only impasse we always breach promises to ourselves.
Like in a relationship, when another person always contempt you. You thought, you will not talk to him/her again. But TEMPTATION act as rein, which emphasis us to repeat the same thing again and again.
In temptation, we lose our boisterous energy. Which vandalise our self steem very badly.
So now the question arise:
How will you overcome this temptation?
It’s too easy. But you have to become consistent in your task.
First make small goals like today you have to read two pages of any book which you want to read. When you complete it slowly increase it 2-3-4-8-10.
When in alternate days, you wouldn’t able to don’t punish yourself. But don’t leave, next day try the same. Use some incentives for you.
Same as for losing weight we all know exercise is important. First start from small move 15-20 minutes.Then slowly increase your time.
Don’t always look at your failures, also look at your success.
If you want to ask anything related to this topic ask in comment section.😊
Last night I drunk just for fun and releive my sadness and sorrow. But o don’t know it leads to a very punishable act. My room is next to warden room. So I drunk in my friends room. She had drunk too much and she had gone to my room and puke. So warden get to know what’s going on in hostel.
I feel too intoxicated that time but I was conscious and I know what’s going all around me. Just after some time, all students get to know. I know it’s very indefensible act but that time I don’t know what to do. My senior scolded me and my friend and warden too warn us that she complain all about this in our family and college.
Other friends said that, ” preeti, I did’t expect this from you”. They one by one alleged us. I defamed. I want to mend everything but I didn’t.
My seniors had handle everything so warden leave us by only a warning.
Next day, when I woke up. My whole body was in pain. I take a painkiller and again slept. Whole day I didn’t go out of my room even in mess. It was very offensive for me. That night a negotiation was done between warden, seniors and my batch. They just contempt me in front of all. I feel very low. After the meeting, a senior came in front of me, she had talk to me very politely. Then I started crying. She said to me, ” you didn’t do anything wrong but next time don’t do it blatantly.
I take a resolution, I will never drink again
At midnight, GST has been launched in India. GST is a tax on “Goods and services” with value addition at each stage.
There are two types of tax in India –
- DIRECT TAX – which include, Corporate tax,corporate tax, wealth tax
- INDIRECT TAX– Excise duty,Service tax,VAT
GST, Which means, One country-One Tax
Before GST, there are various types of taxes added by central and different states.Overall,we pay 17 types of different taxes which increases the price of service.
Thus, today, GST has been implemented in India.Which is a type of DIRECT TAX. Now we have to pay only, ONE TAX. This one tax added only where this goods and sevices will sell. Thus,now various types of indirect taxes will over.
GST counscil has decided four tax slabs, which include 4%, 12%,18%,28%.In whole country only four types of taxes taken on any services.
It is a great move by council of India. Now, we will see how it affect our lives and how greatful, it is.
As we all know about, US and India relationships, After Narendra Modi had become prime minister, this diplomatic relationship become more stronger. I really appreciate the work and hard work of Mr.Modi.
Mr.MODI who visited the US as part of three nation tour. Recently, on June 26, PM modi had visited white house. President Donald Trump welcomed the modi. Donald trump also invited Modi for dinner in white house.
In this visit, both these nations talk about their diplomatic relationship and how to strengthen the relationship between these two countries. While addressing the media, President Donald Trump said that, US as a “True friend” of India. He said that, “The frienship between United States and India is build on shared values including our shared commitment to democracy, and the constitution of both nations begin with the same three very beautiful words, “WE THE PEOPLE”.
PM Modi also met 24 CEOs and had asked them to invest in India, as it will be a ” Bussiness friendly” destination.
They also said that both nation will fight together against ” Terrorism”
PM Modi and President Donald Trump pledged to deepen defence and security coorporation, and increasing free and fair trade.
At last, it was a great visit, it will deepens the India and US diplomatic relationships.